I tend to make what I’m feeling. If I’m sad, my story is about a sad woman. If I’m confused, my story is about a confused woman. Wronged, a woman wronged; elated, a woman elated and so on and so forth.
I’ve been working on an idea for a web series about two women, both dealing with a great loss. The women experience the loss in different ways and at different times in their lives. The women’s emotional journeys are different also but the one similarity is that they are seeking to find themselves.
It should go without saying that I was experiencing a loss of self when this idea came to me. Creating is how I get clarity; it’s how I understand my feelings and how I find peace.
My delimna begins when my feelings change. I’ve yet to discover the ability to write the same story when my feelings are different. I know that working with feeling & consistency is the difference between a creative person and a professional artist. It’s not something I care to admit but I’m more of the former than the latter.
This is particularly true for me as a writer. I can direct it at any time but writing it once the feeling is gone has proven to be on the impossible side of difficult.
I am determined that it does not remain that way. I want to see this show actualized and I think it will be very special. I’m working on developing the tools that will make that a possibility. Stay tuned, there’s a show on the way!