It was a failure of epic proportions. The show didn’t turn out the way I wanted. My deficiencies were glaring. I was very obviously overwhelmed. I made promises that I’ve yet to fulfill. I owe money to a lot of people. The deep shame I feel doesn’t seem to be enough to cover the damage that I have done. I let people down. I let myself down.
I question my ability. I question my aptitude. I question my “talent”. I question my capabilities, my understanding, my vision. I question myself.
What I am beginning to truly understand is that one cannot exist without the other. It is failure that opens the door for us to succeed and it is inevitable that pursuing greatness, pursuing success will lead to much failure.
In investing, some investments are known as “high risk, high reward”. Success is such an investment. You can’t earn $100 million if you’re not even willing to invest $10 million. There is nothing wrong with “low risk, low reward” investments. In fact, any broker or salesman will advise you to invest at your comfort level. I had to ask myself what I wanted in order to know what I was willing to offer.
It’s been said that what you put into something is what you’ll get out of it. I disagree. If an investor breaks even, she doesn’t consider that a rewarding investment. She got out of it what she put into it. An investment is only as valuable as its returns, its profits. So, if I’m not getting more out of “it” than what I’m putting into “it”, something’s wrong with that. I think the Universe works that way. I could be wrong, but I don’t believe I am.
So, I failed. And I failed in a big way. But that is what greatness does.
I thank God, and everyone that He sent to me with that lesson. It has been learned. Thank you to you all.
“I’ve missed more than 9,000 shots in my career. I’ve lost almost 300 games. Twenty six times I’ve been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed” – Michael Jordan